Day 21: Bad

I’m back.

This past week, in terms of “good,” was, well, “bad.”

The reason I wasn’t blogging here was because I was embarrassed. Here I had publicly proclaimed I would be good for a month, and last week I fell. Horribly. I didn’t regress all the way back to where I started, but it was pretty darn close. The accordion continued to be practiced and meals were made… sort of. But I went to the gym exactly once. I didn’t make it to yoga at all. I didn’t eat the sweets that were offered me throughout the week, but let’s just say when I went out to dinner/lunch/brunch over the weekend I didn’t exactly count points either. I didn’t blog here. I got a post up for Dog Bliss for today, but the rest of the week still needs to be done. Bliss went unbrushed. Videos weren’t posted. I called no one.

I feel horrible.

The main reason I feel horrible is because I didn’t choose to let these things go. I just kind of went along with my week and allowed things to happen to me, and that’s when the bad feelings start. I’ve come to realize in the last three weeks that it’s okay to let things go as long as you choose to let things go. It’s not about being “good” at all. It’s about making choices and being in control.

I’m going to put last week behind me, and in an effort to counteract the self-flagellation, I shall now talk about the “good” from last week.

We had two family events. That Guy I Live With and I had a Sunday brunch date. We went to dinner with a friend on Friday. I got to the gym once. I’m still flossing. I practiced the accordion (and I bought my very own accordion! HOORAY!). I took Bliss to have her nails clipped (not a “brushing,” but still in the realm of grooming). I introduced myself to the woman who’s opening a new dog boutique near our place (I’m anti-social, remember, so this is always difficult for me). I posted photos from an event for a former coworker who’s been eager to see them. I offered to help out a friend for a job interview. I helped another friend procure an apartment in the city. I attended a career management workshop.

Wow… when I write it all out like that, it doesn’t seem so bad.

Hm.

Comments

[That Guy...]

Yay for posts that come around!

[Cate]

See? You're still good, dude.

I did yoga last night. I didn't picture Kermit laughing, but that's only because I was too busy dying beacuse the gym schedule lied and it was Ashtanga instead of Hatha.

Don't beat yourself up and remember to be more gentle with yourself. You do a lot more good than you realize!